Love (My first subject and a subject that I am sure someone out there has felt)

Love. Yea. You know I have a couple of really good friends who have already been touched by this emotion. There is Matt. He really cares about this one girl, a lot. Things don't seem to be working out and because of this, he gets frustrated and decides to give up. Not that I can blame him. He really cares about this girl and he is a good guy. She just needs to wake up and realize what she does to him. She plays games with him. It's not right. He never has had a real g/f. He deserves a good girl, and for her to play with him like she does is just wrong. Then there is my friend Karl. He has found a great girl. She is awesome, genuine, and is going to make Karl happy for the rest of his life. They are perfect for each other. I am so happy for him. As being a part of the group who helped set Karl and "her" up, I feel proud. They are going to live a life full of memories together. They have found love and will continue to find it together. Then my friend Tyler. Oh Tyler. I won't say what exactly he has done wrong, but lets just say that he thinks too much with his manly organ. He lets his hormones get the best of him. He has a g/f but he could have done a lot of things to have been a better boyfriend. Matt is confused, Karl is for sure, Tyler is lost and I am at a pinnicle of realization. I have all of these examples, these real life scenarios in front of me and at the same time I have a girl in my life that I care so much for. I love her to say the least. We aren't dating, we are close friends and have been for a while. I have talked to her about "us" before. Something is always in the way though. She isn't over her ex (my friend), she doesn't want a relationship, she is too busy. For two years, I have understood and now, to this day, I understand her more than ever. I realize how I feel for her, and no matter what, I am going to keep caring for her. I want more, sure. But I have thought about it a lot. The whole subject. I mean I think a lot. 24/7, seriously. When I am asleep, working, driving, all the time. Love is on my mind a lot. She means so much to me. What to do? Keep on being ther for her until it is clear that she has no feelings for me, which to this point hasn't been clear, or until she gives me a chance. Anyways, I might delete this blog later for a certain reason, but for anyone who might stumble upone this, and is reading this right now, thanks. Its weird. I am in a certain city, a certain state, a certain country...you, you are somewhere else. You are someone else. But even still, we able to converge on a level through this medium. Two people exchanging ideas without the consent of the other. Its just amazing. Life in general. Thank you.

KMS